When Fear Creeps In

 When I was younger I feared rejection.......

 When I was younger I feared failure........

 When I was younger I feared the unknown........

 I suppose I still do at times. I suppose I still let those fears creep in and steal my Joy.

 Today fear of rejection came back from a long winters sleep and it was the hard and choking kind. The kind that snuffs out the life of good intentions, dreams and plans.

Today doubt came back like an old lonely friend............I was too tired to fight it off......too weak to push it away. So I put the fear on like a coat and wrapped myself in failure..........

I told my man that I might of bit off more than I could chew. Maybe this dream really wasn't meant to be.

I retreat to my computer where I tap out all of what I feel. And there in my in-box a couple of e-mails. Little Joy refreshments, Little nuggets of sweetness, Little reminders of why God puts me in just the right place at just the right time.


 "My daughter loves your new Co-op! She can't wait for Tuesdays!"   "If you need help please don't hesitate to ask, I would love to!"  "Hey, isn't it neat how Our Co-op is also becoming a Mininstry?" "My kids really love Tuesdays now!"

I tend to forget that sometimes I am my own worst critic. I am the only one........I am the only one who can crush my Joy! I was reminded today that I need to look through the eyes of a child and not the eyes of a Mama who strives too hard for perfection. And it's in the living of life's lessons that I learn. I have the power to push out the fears that use to strangle me when I was a girl. Why is it then, I still forget that what I hold in my heart is the power to drive out every fear I've ever known?

Instead of the coat of fear, Tonight I am wrapping myself in His Mercy and Grace.......I'm asking His forgiveness, for letting those old worn out fears creep in again.

"And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age." Matthew 28:20



But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9