Broken and dry. The words are not flowing like they use to. Like a river that flows strong, they use to flow from my heart and pour onto paper. My heart is not in the right place. I'm not where I should be and He knows this. My quick temper is what flows out of me now along with the spray of impatience and selfishness. I am broken, but I fear My words are mere utterings and repetition of things I have uttered before. For if I can not serve you, my Father, with Peace and Joy in the Holy Spirit Then whom am I serving. Thus, by my fruit you will recognize me. Matthew 7:20
Oh Lord, I don't want to be recognized for the rotten fruit that I have been displaying for my loved ones to see. I would not put rotten fruit out for guests, why then am I giving it to my family? Oh Lord I am asking for forgiveness,I am seeking your will, and I am knocking at your door. Come rescue me from myself.
"My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. for when I am weak then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
Unfortunately, it is my family who receives the consequences for my failure to spend time with Jesus. I cannot stand the person I become without Him. Your honesty and brokenness are refreshing. Thanks for sharing.
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