Just Another Iron In The Fire

When you feel your days are all blurred together and nothing seems as it were, it's best to look up and hold on tight. This morning I had to break away from being inside and all the thoughts that seem to hold me captive. The ones that never let go and seem to suffocate and strangle hold until you think you can't breathe, til you feel stuck fast in pain knee deep.

You see it's always the pain of letting go. And little boys and little girls they seem to grow so fast. The days they come and they fly.  The days that are all wrapped up in anticipation of spending the night at grandma's house, they flee all too quickly. All too soon the little boy's best stuffed animal will be packed away in a box and put in his closet because at the time of packing he just can't seem to let it go.

And Mama she remembers........She always remembers little things like this.

Mama remembers the nights she stayed up with her 4 year old son in her lap making sure he drinks every half hour and checking his temperature and praying the numbers stay down......She remembers a little girl that could only be rocked upside down. It was the only way she could fall asleep. She remembers flowers being picked by her little man and watching him run across the field in his cow boy boots just to give them to her.

She remembers holding their little chubby hands and kissing their sweet smudge up faces. She remembers being on her knees praying and asking for forgiveness when she just knew she had screwed things up. She remembers a little girl that would be calmed down by the sweet song "You are my Sunshine" and she would smile wide and her face always seemed to glow just as if the Son was always shining down upon her.

She remembers her little man always asking her to marry him. And she remembers having to tell him that she was already married to Daddy. She remembers his eyes when she told him no........

The days leading up to an empty nest, they come whirring in like a funnel cloud. This funnel cloud, it comes down upon you and sweeps all your memories up and you search frantically through the debris and the rubble of it all. And some how it just doesn't make sense to you and you wonder if it ever will....

You wonder through all the confusion of having to let go if you will ever be normal again.....Will you stop feeling so empty?........

It's just another iron in the fire....

I ask my dear Mama friend if I could help with "The letting Go" Her baby boy is graduating ....I told her I can feel her pain. And she types these words out for me...."Just fill in the gap with me and pray. God is doing a wonderful work in me, burning all the earthy flesh can be quite painful. Love you my friend."


And this is what makes us Beautiful in God's eyes.....The refining fire. The only fire that can burn away the need to hold on and the pain that comes with letting go. It's the iron in the fire that makes the earthly flesh melt away. Prepares us for a new season. Prepares us Mamas for the Mentoring and the Matriarching...

Oh Holy God, I lift all my Mama friends up to you that are going through the fire. I pray that you hold us tight, because honestly sometimes the pain of letting go is just too much to bare.......

But our hope is in you and your plans are BIG. And you know all about "The Letting Go"......

Your love proves more powerful than even the love of a Mama.....And as the change takes place  and our wings are drying, waiting and ready for the beauty to be revealed, please hold close, because this Mama she remembers the little things. She hurts and she's trying to let go gracefully......We need your mercy and grace to take flight to the next season of this life......